New Year 2010!

Many of you do not know this . . .  but I am married . . .  I was married young and I am still the age of many college students . . .  but marriage and living in the real world has taught me more than I ever learned from school.  I really believe that I have a distinct and unique perspective on life in America and the Christian culture here . . . .  because I believe I have been on both sides of the fence . . . in a way.  I have been on the skeptical side of the fence for many years . . .  I have been on the doubting side of the fence . . .  I have been on the moral and "sophisticated" side of the fence . . . or more like 'moral and successful' side . . . . I have been on the side of the street where girls and boys grow up in gangs and with the only they  . . . and even I could seem to get back at the world was to lash out with words . .  or with raw emotional physical destruction . . . . but nothing can ever really take the pain away from not only having no family  . . .  but also growing up in a violent, abusive, and many times life threatening environment . . . . .  and  . . . I have also grown up with the thought that I did not understand why it was so hard to believe in God . . . or wondering what it was even like to have a spiritual renewal experience of my very own. 

Well sometimes things happen . . .  and GOD happens  . . . when you least expect it  . . .  and just like as in the story with the footprints . . .  you suddenly look back  . .  and you are amazed at the wonders God has performed in your life when you didn't even realize it.

AT this time  . . . right after Christmas  . . . and the new year 2010 already begun . . .  I think about all my Atheistic friends . . .  I think about my emotionally torn past . . .  and I think about my parents . . . not even knowing if they are even saved . . . I worry more than anything about whether I can help the people closest to me to learn about Jesus and be saved . . .  I mean who knows? . . .  The second coming could be any day now . . . . and STILL people come to my site just to mock me . . .  Seriously I am more saddened for them than for any personal attacks they make towards me.  Nothing can be worse than Hell . . . nothing . . . .

And at this time . . .  I also have doubts . . . like what am I even doing anymore . . .  where my life is going . . .  so many times I have even asked myself if I am kidding myself about this 'God thing'  knowing that my parents told me themselves they thought I was crazy . . .

It's weird that the one thing that makes MY life complete . . . is the one thing that separates me from the majority of people on the planet . . .  the majority of whom are not Christians . . . do not take the question of the afterlife seriously, do not think about consequences or purpose to what is going on in their lives at this exact moment  . . .  All they can think about is how their life choices will effect their personal comfort . . .  and THAT is what is accepted in society right now . . . and I'm sure has been accepted for a long long time . . . .

The holidays are very rough on me . . . so I ask that anyone reading this would PLEASE keep me in prayer . . . I am not good at asking this to people face to face right now . . . So I will leave it in God's hands . . . that whoever reads this post and decides to pray for me . . . . I'm sure that is just the right person I need to pray for me . . . .

You see . . .  my marriage to a believing and professing Christian has caused a rift between me and my former friends and family . . .  and it has saved me from an abusive environment . . .  Somehow . . .I believe that whether or not I am able to help close this rift  . .  the least I can do is try to help close the rift between Christians and Atheists here in America and around the world . ..  especially those that I relate to  . . . those who still have the most hope and window of opportunity to come to understand each other . . .  the youth of our generation.

And so I can only pray that someone will reach my own family and friends . ..  but at the moment I cannot . .  and I am not emotionally able to . . .  It has been killing me inside . . . But I'm going to have to leave it in God's hands . .  and perhaps I will help reach someone reach a member of someone else's family that no one else could reach.

The reason I believe so strongly in talking about Creation Science . . .  is because . .  Science is like a god to this world to Secularists and Atheists . . .  and science is something people know to be good and helpful . . .  science is something people can relate to . . .  If we can take this jumping off point and run with it . . .  just like Paul did with the 'unknown god' with the Greeks . ..  perhaps we can reach some people with the truth that has saved us . . . the Saving faith in Jesus Christ our Lord.

SOME THOUGHTS ON GOD'S INFLUENCE ON MY LIFE

Hi there . . . I'm going to start with this . . . I'm not going to got into full details about my life . . but I do want to share a little bit about myself . . just in case people might relate to me . . . or in case people are wondering if I am really a real person . . . not just a character on the web . . . So . . I am trying to present as many facets of myself to you as possible . . . without . . of course giving away where I live or details about my family and things of that sort . . . Anyhooooooo . . ..

So . . . Yes, I admit it . . I did grow up in church . . . so yes, technically yes, I would have been open to the idea of God from the moment I was born . . . Many atheists believe that Christians are just brought up with the idea of God and suddenly somehow accept it . . . . even though . . yes we all have to make a commitment to Christ, yes . . however . . . I know that many people generally believe what their parents believe . . if their parents are Jewish . . people are generally Jewish, if their parents are Protestant or Catholic, people are generally Protestant or Catholic, respectfully. And of course . . if people's parents are atheistic, worldly, skeptical, rich, poor . . pretty much ANYTHING . . . Yes! it's seems that the kids end up following suite much of the time. HOWEVER . . . . we have to remember that this is most of the time . .. . What makes someone question what they believe? What makes someone know that what their parents believe is true? What makes someone even care? What makes someone think it even matters to find out what is true? . . . . well these are things that some people have asked themselves for centuries . . . . . . . but in today's culture it seems like the next new pair of shoes is more important than the fate of our souls in relationship to the universe, if we even have souls, as some question.

But back to me . . . so the earliest knowledge of God that I can remember was my mom telling me that she loved me and that more importantly . . . God loved me . . . . I don't remember how old I was, but i was definitely being held in her arms and tiny . . definitely younger than three years old . . . This is the earliest memory of my life that I have . . . and I believe that I remembered this for a reason . .. not only this . . but my mother must have been saying this to me over and over . . so that I would know! My mom was pretty cool . . . but there have been some pretty hard times between she and I . . . . . which is one of the reasons that I know God is real, because God has been with me whether I was in good or bad situations . . . and whether I was doing the right or wrong thing even . . . once you accept the free gift of God's Salvation for your own . . . He will never let you go! Never! NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO!

When I had issues with my parents and I was on my own for the first time in my own apartment . . . somehow I realized that this whole "faith thing" was all me now . . . couldn't say . . . .yah . . 'this is the church my parents go to' or whatever . . . . it was up to me now! Was I going to follow God faithfully no matter what the circumstances? Was I going to make the effort to go to church without having my mom and dad drag me out of bed? Was God going to be real for me? I was even thinking to myself, what would God show me? Is He even really there? . . . . . Yah Baby . . . Yah . . HE WAS THERE and IS HERE WITH ME in everything I do, in every breath I breath, in every moment of my life. I remember telling my Dad on the phone . . . . "God is with me! even now" I remember that still small voice, as I looked behind me to the car that contained everything I had . . . and seeing a Bible, saying "I am with you"

I remember God speaking to my heart when I was deciding whether or not to go to a prestigious school, warning me to not go or I would become like my grandmother . . who was proud and cruel. I knew her type . . . and I didn't want to be like that but I didn't care . . . I was too hurt to think about other people . . . I wanted a life for me . . . and then I remembered God's promise to take care of His flock and all of His Children. I decided against going for the prestigious scholarship at the upperclass school even though it was what I had always wanted. . . being made fun of for wearing stained clothes to school . . I woud have loved nothing more but to prove to the world that it was my circumstances they were laughing at, not me, besides that the scholarship was what everyone expected me to take . . . . But like in many cases, faith in God appears foolish to the world, and I was called foolish by many people . . . instructors friends, family, etc . . . . all because I didn't believe God was calling me to go there . . . . Just because maybe I believed God would call me to the right path . . . Just because . .. maybe I believed God was real . . . and continue to believe . . . But Paul says in the scriptures that God "uses the foolish things of this world to shame the wise" and so . . . I still believe that my choice will be shown to be what was best for me . . . I am happily married now . . . and without the Lord's guiding perhaps I would still be alone to this day . . . You see . . . . The Lord helps us to see that there are things that are more important than Careers or Education or Business or Fame or Fortune or
anything in this world that people think is the bees knees. God has to be FIRST! and all the other needs in your life will 'be added unto you' . . . something my grandfather always said . . . . well . . .

that's about all the typing I have in me today . . . . . . . on the outside . . . following God may look crazy to some . . . but the peace that He gives us in our hearts is what people can't see . . . . and it is worth more than a thousand lifetimes of worldly pleasure!

Thanks for your time . . . . . - May God Bless You All!

-The Creation Chick